I haven’t been posting for a while now mainly because I went back to work after 3 years of being a stay at home Mom. When I quit my job in 2011, it was due to a sense of urgency that I had to help Mars since he was making very little progress. I’m so glad I was able to take the time off work because he has made tremendous progress (although it seems very slow compared to typical kids). Last year I came to the point where I felt it’s hugely important for me to focus on working/saving & investing wisely so I can leave some financial assets for my kids when I am gone. I know for certain that the Lord inspired me with this vision because this job practically fell in my lap so to speak and it happened less than 2 months after my Mom told me she was praying for a job for me (how it happened is a testimony worthy of it’s own post). So here I am entering a new chapter of life. This is my second month at work and I am enjoying having a focus other than kids/autism for a change.
Another new chapter is Mars and starting medication. I have to confess that in the past I’ve been judgmental about parents who put their kids on medication. I struggled with it for over 6 months because I felt guilty that putting Mars on medication was just about making my life easier. After much prayer and soul searching, I came to a point of peace about it because of 2 things: first the realization that Mars himself was suffering because of his out of control emotions; second the realization that there is nothing wrong in desiring a peaceful home and better quality of life for myself and especially for my other child too. After he bit me a few times, I was truly afraid that Mars would hurt his sister really bad one day and I wasn’t going to let that happen (in fact, he’s grabbed her twice but fortunately not bit her). So now that he’s been on the smallest dose of Prozac since end of February, he’s been the happy good natured kid that he always had been before last summer. And we haven’t had any side effects so far, thank God. (We did have a detour from Prozac to Zoloft for about 3 weeks but Zoloft was completely ineffective for Mars so we switched back to Prozac but in pill form because the liquid is majorly yucky).
So dear reader, I’m not going to be posting as often but hope to do so occasionally as time allows.
May the Peace of God that surpasses all understanding be with you.